serapupulatune

Edo has been having nightmares 5 times in a row. Nightmares about matter that he doesn't want to be reminded.

Depressed. He just want happy thoughts in his head.

Someone, I need help. Please. Help me. Because I can't.

Some small matters has been troubling and clouding Edo's mind lately. One of them is a subconscious action that his girlfriend has done.

Until today, his still not happy about it and the fact that his girlfriend shows no guilt or any signs of remorse pisses him off even more.

What she has been doing is complaining about herself, pushing herself, punishing herself which serves no other purposes other than acts as an excuse to morally ease herself. Other than that, from what I've observed, she did nothing to fix it.

She could at least say.. "sorry"


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... to his face.

Sometimes I just don't give a damn anymore. Seriously. I just don't even bother to write about it too, because I felt that it's pointless, and everybody thinks it's pointless too.

Sigh.

DaiCon sucks.

Yeah, seriously.

I felt like I'm being ignored now. There's nothing interesting to blog about for weeks!

Edo wants to be happy. Everybody wants to be happy.

He refuses to be alone anyone. He wants to be with someone badly.. but he can't be desperate.

Life has been bad for him. He can't find happiness in the things he do anymore itseems. I need to figure out away to cheer him up. Maybe I should force him out of the house, leave his work behind, forget everything else and go out to the fields.

Never underestimate the power of nature.

Don't worry Ed. You always have me. ^_^

Working continuously for days wasn't fun at all.

Especially on the website. He had to code the entire website from the scratch, alone. He tried to get some help from others but it seems like other's just don't really care about it much. Maybe others feel that "edo's will somehow manage to go through it".

Bugging for contents was hard. He only managed to get it done hours after the scheduled launch ( that's after the launched has been delayed for 3 times ). He felt that seriously his work is underappeciated. I think this is the most intensive webwork he done so far ( and he did it for free ).

In the end, it's just a website. What's lamer that he had no one to specially impressed. He used to go "Dear dear, look at this" to his girlfriend. Now that she replaced him with someone else, all that he can impress is the visitors itself. Of course, you won't get special appreciation from the looks of the site. Visitors don't go "wow, nice website". They go "wow, nice event".

Yeah, he kinda achieved the main objective of the website ( visitors had to see beyond the design and get the content ). But, he just feels lame that his work is not appreciated much.

Now, he's studying for his coming maths mid-term exams, which he has no confidence of passing. Sad life, isn't it?

Edo fapped to the final episode of Battlestar Galactica. It's good according to him. Only to find out that he still have a lot of work to be done after watching it.

Sigh.

There's one thing I noticed about him lately. Not sure it's a smart thing or not, but... it's notable enough to be blogged.

He's being nocturnal with a weird reason : the weather is hot, and he refuse to work during daytime. He's saying that, the hot atmosphere kills his motivation and creativity.

Yeah, he's been working all night long alright, and sleeping all day long.

Me? I'm just staying out of his way.. although occasionally i took over and read mangas online, disturbing his work :P

Oh, it's raining.. minutes before Edo is about to go to class.

Oh well. What can he do? He can't drive out in the rain due to his car's air conditioning is spoiled. I can't let him risk himself in a car crash coz he can't see the road properly due to the fogged up windshield. No no.

Continue back to sleep, Edo. Yes, good boy.

ZZZzzz..

Edo felt lame.

Nothing new. He always feel lame all the time. This time, over with work. Some company just rejected his work over a suckier design and now he need to go through sleepless nights again just to compete with the another design.

Also, there's this GACC movie video shoot that he's not supposed to be involved but got dragged in because they suck to much. So, edo had to handle video shoot also now, not only the video editting. Yeah, he only agreed on video editting. Sucks. Oh, he's having hard time with the actors too. I had to come out and teach them how to act.

Oh, my host is being under pressure. Poor ed. I shall reduce my abuse over his body less for now. Yes, for now. >:)

O hai, world.

I'm Serapupulatune. I'm a fox spirit that has been possessing Edo's body since childhood. I saved his life when he almost died from a strong fever for a month. Yes, he owes me a big debt. In return I forcefully possesses his body. Don't worry, I'm nice. Besides, I'm the reason that he's a happening guy, really. He's a lame ass. Shh, don't tell everyone that. Remember, he's still my host. He looses friend, I loose friends too. So remember, when you see him, do talk to me.

Did he make you laugh? You think he's funny? No. No no. That was me.

So today I decided that I should make my OWN journal. Yes, this would be MY journal. You can check his journal at http://edo.nierchi.net. Don't go there, it's boring. Visit mine! Often!

Oh, thanks for visiting.